Its that time of year again , I really don't like Christmas anymore at all. Its hard for Graeme and Nicola not to have 2 parents and be left with only me, its far from the same for them I,m not a good dad to them like you were.  Calum and Anna are the most gorgeous Grand Children you could wish for and It just breaks my heart on Christmas Day to see them without you especially Calum .. Nicola is great with them as always she was born to be a mum.  I miss you every single day of my life and always will. Hard to move on , you do it half heartedly but allegedly you have to !!!! ..  Love you to bits and always will. xxxxxxxxxxxxxx